August.

Once again we all say how fast the previous month has seemingly flown by.
And it has, yet again, flown by.

As I sit here, I wonder...does it all happen like this?
Does everything speed past, onward until the end?
I just wish everything would slow down for a second.

A lot had occured in the month of July that made me wonder, if only for that single second, am I wasting my time? Time. Time to dream this summer away. Time to be with the people whom which my last four years were surrounded by. Time for them all to move on without me. Time for me to grow. Time for lives to begin and end.

August is going to be tough for me, and all other seniors of two thousand and eleven, as every August is for a graduating class. It's when those goodbyes become reality. In a few days, I'll be saying goodbye to some of my best friends. I can't imagine what that is going to be like, and honestly I don't want to.

July was beautiful. Full of love and heat and pure life. July introduced me to some very incredible people. July also has come very close to pulling some incredible people from my arms.

I hope July was beautiful for you too,wherever you may be,whomever you may be.
May August bring you life, love, and hapiness.
Once again, thank you for following along with me.
C'est la vie.
-K.


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Lifes changing.

The past fourty eight hours have been quite strange for me. Last night, I had such a wonderful evening with my family, basking in the heat that has swept over the entire country for the past week. Everyone was happy, and the world stopped being terrible if only for us. I laughed like I never laughed before.

But still inside of me, I was nervous. In only a few hours, I was planning the next few months of my freshman year of college. I was so excited to learn my courses and meet my advisor at 9am, I knew I wouldn't be able to sleep. Sleep. I could dream of it now. After a few hours when the excitement of the day calmed down and everyone was asleep, my dad, my hero, began experiening extremely bad pains in his stomach. Okay, the thing about my father is that he shows no pain. You know something is wrong when he asks my mother to drive him to the hospital. One fourty five, am.

Text after text, I beg my mom for results. Stupid hospital cell phone rules, don't they know that my dad is there? I need information. Of all things, a kidney stone? How could such a minsicule thing pull down a giant. A few pain killers and curses later, my dad arrived home. Safe. Four thirty, am.

I can't sleep. I can't help but wonder about my dad, my advisor, my mom. Mom, the strongest woman in the whole wide world. Driving an hour away in rush hour traffic to an uncertain future in only a matter of meer hours that passed like seconds.

My schedule is amazing. College, two days a week? Are you joking? I don't know if this will be good or bad, but from where I see it, it doesn't seem to rough. Tomorrow, is just another day. But it isn't. Tomorrow is a big day. An interview. Old Navy, please hire me. I need this. Ten Seventeen, pm. I'm writing this and wondering about my day tomorrow. And I know I won't sleep tonight either. Summer sucks in that way, no one ever sleeps the way they're supposed to. But I'm okay.

My dad is okay. I'm okay.

Life's changing. And I think that that, is okay.
Until the next time, ciao.
C'est la vie.
-K

Changing..

Tumblr has officially taken over my life. I think this blog will be mostly used for personal photography, rants, and product reviews.

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Rant.

These past few days have been quite eye opening for me.
I cannot believe how truly ridiculous some people are.

I have been friends with a very amazing person for about six years now. Through their ups and downs, I've never left their side. I couldn't imagine living my life without their daily words of inspiration and pure kindness. Until today.

After a conversation about religion, all of a sudden, this persons views of me as a person completely changed. As a very devout christian, this person didn't realize that my views of God and all things holy are a bit different than theirs. Instantly, they became very persistant, telling me that my soul is in danger, and that I need to study the bible. They told me that they were fearfull for my well being, and someday if " I ever make it to Heaven's gate, God may turn me away and say they never knew me as his child." I'm not one to usually take things to heart but this struck me completely off guard.

I don't understand why such a beautiful friendship is ending. I don't understand why views of a person are strictly based of the belief in a higher power. I do believe in God, but my ideas often change, as does everyday life.

I'm not one to rant, but I needed to get this off my chest.

How dare you judge me based on my own relationship with God? I have stood by your side through thick and thin and this is what I get in return?

I'm sick to my stomach. I just lost a piece of my last 6 years in a couple of text messages. People change.

C'est La vie.
-K.

C'est la vie.

La vie est fabuleuse.
-k.

Love is a beautiful thing.

July 9th, 2011 was a very special day for my family. I'd like to use this post to say congratulations to my cousin Lindsay, and her husband Jamie! Your wedding was absolutely beautiful, fit for a Princess, and her new Prince Charming. I love both of you very much, and wish you the best for your future together as husband and wife.
Love is beautiful.
-K.

Welcoming July..

So this is the fourth post of this month, and it's very unlike me to not rant and rave as my first post. SO, here we go.

I say this every month and I think anyone reading this would agree that June absolutely flew past us all. June was probably the most incredibly odd month of my life. I just couldn't believe that everything that was happening to me, was actually happening. In June, I...

- Finished my last day in high school.
- Quit my job.
- Went to prom.
- Received a scholarship for writing.
- Graduated.

Honestly, I feel like none of that ever happened. I feel like one day, I'll wake up and get dressed to go to the bus stop for my first day of 10th grade again. As much as people try to tell you that those four years are the best days of your life, they are, but they're also the fastest. When people ask me how old I am, I cannot believe that I say I'm 18. Wasn't my sweet 16 last week? Didn't I just attend my 8th grade formal? High school orientation? Everything is a bit surreal. I feel like I'm floating, high on life...and the only thing keeping me grounded is the realization that in a few mere weeks, a large majority of my past is leaving for a brand new start. Some of my best friends are traveling for college. It's strange. Really..it is.

But my new start is soon to come. I'll find something new. I'll start my own journey. I'll grow and learn and hold so tightly onto the memories that June left me. And I'll be thankful for that month.
And I'll be Kristen Nicole.
And I'll be okay.
I hope you will too.
I hope you enjoy the beauty July brings.
C'est la vie.
-K.